The Pink Rose

I’ve been listening to an audiobook called Happy Days by Gabrielle Bernstein. She talks about how she asked the universe for a sign that she was going in the right direction. She asked to be shown a blue butterfly – and without going into a lot of detail about this book, I’ll let you know that the next day her sign came to her loud and clear.  

After Gabby talks about her sign coming to her – she challenges the listener to ask for a sign from the universe like she did. I won’t lie to you… I was a little hesitant BUT I also picked this audiobook for a reason. I knew I wanted to take in as much as I could from this audio book, so I chose to believe that the universe might show me a sign as well.

The first item that came to mind was a pink rose. Don’t ask me why – roses aren’t my favourite flower, nor is pink my favourite colour. I didn’t want to change what I asked the universe to show me because that item came to me automatically, which made me believe that it was meant to be. 

On June 24^th I asked the universe to show me a pink rose ONLY if I was on my way to recovery / becoming my true authentic self. I wrote it down in one of my millions of journals that I own just in case I forgot what I asked the universe to show me. It turns out I may forget what I had for breakfast this morning BUT when it comes to wanting a sign I’m in the right direction it’s basically all I could think of.

I won’t tell you that the same day I decided to do this that a pink rose showed up – or even the next day just like it did for Gabby Bernstein. I wasn’t trying to rush the process either – I simply just wanted to keep in the back of my mind that I did ask for this sign. I continued to meditate more these next few days and practiced different self-love techniques I have learned on my journey. 

On July 27^th (3 days later) I was going to Superstore with my partner Spencer to pick up some things for dinner. Spence has a small bladder, which I’m sure I will mention a few times in my future blog entries (I seem to do some of my best thinking when I’m waiting for him to pee in public places). Anyways, Spencer went to the bathroom and I waited downstairs by the entrance for him.  

There was a row full of colourful summer flowers that I was mesmerized by. I don’t plant anything myself (I’ve really gotten killing plants down to a science), but I still admire their beauty. Their colours were so bold and bright that day – which was how I would describe how I was feeling personality wise that day. I moved towards the start of the row of flowers and stopped. There they were – pink roses.  

I just started smiling instantly. I knew right then and there that it was the sign the universe gave me – the sign I asked for just a few days prior. I was excited to tell Spencer when he came back that I was on the right path. I couldn’t wait to tell him that for the first time in what seems like forever I truly felt like I belonged and I was going on the path made for me. 

But then my mindset changed. I started to wonder if my question was specific enough. I thought “man… I should have asked for a specific area in my life,” and “what if the universe is telling me I’m on the right tract for one part of my life but I take it as something completely different?” I was coming up with so many reasons why it wasn’t actually a sign from the universe for me. My pure joy and happiness then made a 180 turn to sadness and disappointment. 

I just kept thinking ok… there’s a pink rose in front of me like I asked for… so what’s the twist? 

Then I stopped and became aware of these negative thought patterns and decided to meditate. I did some deep beathing, I listened to positive affirmations, and life changing podcast episodes. I allowed my mind to clear, which brought me back to reality. A reality where I realized that I knew exactly what the pink rose was telling me. 

The pink roses were the universe’s sign to let me know I am on the right path, or should I say paths: 

• The path to recovery 
• The path to authenticity 
• The path to self-love 
• The path to forgiveness 
• The path to healing my past traumas 
• The path to living a life aligned with my values 

In the past 6-8 months, I’ve learned a lot about how my brain is programmed to believe that I am not deserving or good enough for… well pretty much everything. My thoughts automatically go to the negative side of things. I may come off as a happy, bubbly, optimistic person – but the truth is this is something I work on every single day. It does not come natural at all. This is a new awareness of mine and I am excited to share that part of my journey throughout my blog. 

I am on the right path to fully, completely loving myself for all that I am, not all that I’ve been told that I am and chose to believe. I have always been an advocate for mental health. I’ve always had a passion for caring for others and wanting to help people see the best versions of themselves. I would burn myself out to help others when in reality I never even knew how to take care of myself. I was always confused with who I truly was. I would be a big advocate for self-love but truly didn’t know how to love myself unconditionally.  

It wasn’t until I really started to dig deep into my biggest fears, the power of vulnerability, my past traumas, emotions I’ve been repressing for years, my triggers and so much more that I finally started to find my authentic self again. I not only found that girl – I’m also truly starting to have a happier life. 

The pink rose let me know that all of my hard work, dedication, passion, resilience, and so many moments of wanting to run from challenges and things that scared me – finally paid off.  

These pink flowers are a sign I am doing what I am supposed to be doing. I can’t wait to start sharing different things I have learned this past year; the things that are helping me become my true, authentic self. I’m excited to be vulnerable and open up about struggles I have faced but recently come to terms with. I am excited that possibly I will be able to guide someone the way that all the Podcasters, authors, and Youtubers have helped me. 

With lots of love and positive vibes,

K